Staples in the Head

The last picture was of Kylie's haircut. The flash was bright, that's why her eyes are half closed.  Here is a picture of the staples. Joel has to put on the triple antibiotic because I just can't.

Scared

Tonight when I got home with the girls there was an accident. Joel had the day off so he was making dinner.  I had gotten out of work at 5:30 because I was trying to finish some stuff up. We got home and it's hot and I've a headache from this cold or sinus infection whatever it may be. Kylie is sleeping in the car but I'm not in the mood to carry her upstairs. I had Chloe inside and I get Kylie inside and go back to the van to get sippy cups and other items I don't want to leave in the van overnight. I come inside and say "I'm going upstairs." Both girls are just sitting on the steps waiting for me.  I had told them to get upstairs and they didn't budge. My hands are full and I'm trying to maneuver around them. Well, my shoulder hits a picture on the wall which falls and hits Kylie on the head. The corner hits her head and this picture is about 10 lbs. It's not light.

Kylie has this gash on her head and it's bleeding pretty bad. We get her upstairs and in the bathroom and Joel takes charge with getting the bleeding stopped or slowed, it didn't stop. Kylie is crying and Chloe is crying because Kylie is crying. What a mess! After 15 minutes Joel says we should go to the hospital. We all get in the van and go to the ER at DeVos. So thankful for their valet parking.
The nurse practitioner looks at the wound and says she'll need 3 staples in her head.  I have to hold a cotton ball to her head with the numbing medicine on it for 20 minutes and then they'll staple. At the 19 minute mark I was starting to freak out. I thought I saw a hole in her head.
The hospital does a wonderful job with kids. Kylie got to pet an Australian labradoodle named Deacon. Then when the staples were being done a woman had brought some books for Kylie to read to distract her. Of course it still hurt and when it was over the nurse practitioner said she wanted to put one more staple in. Oh boy! Kylie didn't like that but it got done. She did get a green slushy and a sticker book to color because she did a great job.   Then, because it was 8:00 and we didn't eat dinner yet we got McDonalds for the girls and Joel and I had what Joel had started making before the head injury occured.

I am scared like the subject line says because I think about tonight and I cry. I know stuff like this happens all the time but I don't want it to happen to my children. We already lost one of our girls.  I don't want to lose another.  I can't help but think that. I know it's not likely to happen, but it could. Kylie could get an infection and fever and... She already had this bad cough. I have this feeling we won't be going to see my brother in New York soon because something will happen.

I just had to get that out of my head. I feel a bit better. I've been thinking I may have to make an appointment with my counselor so she can reinforce everything is ok, kids have accidents and no one would make it to adulthood if all accidents ended badly. Wow! I did not think I'd react this way. But with the trauma from 2 years ago, it shouldn't surprise me. 

I know I need to turn to Jesus and give this all to Him and not worry. That is hard to do. I will try and pray.
I will try and post pictures. I just realized tonight I should see if blogger has an app and they do. I'm writing this on my phone. It's been 1 year and 1 month since we had internet. 

Kylie got her hair cut 2 days ago and it's adorable. Then I took some off the back of her head. Yucky! I couldn't wash her hair tonight and she kind of smells like blood. Ugh, not liking the smell. Her hair looks pink where there is blood. 

Good night, I pray it is a good night.