Kindergarten

I just dropped Kylie off for her first day of Kindergarten. She did wonderful! She stood in line so nice. I thought I was going to cry but held back until I got back in the car. She's so grown up!

Dentist

This past weekend Chloe would say "my teeth hurt." And then point to the top front teeth. I would look and not see anything, but better be safe than sorry so I made a dentist appointment. I made one for Kylie as well. They had an opening this afternoon so I took the girls.  Kylie was nervous but wanted to go first and did a great job. She has good teeth so far. Then while we waited for the dentist, Chloe would say "my turn, my turn." She was eager to have them look in her mouth. I will say it was funny watching Chloe because when the hygienist took the toothbrush tool out of Chloe's mouth, Chloe would lick/eat the orange flavor toothpaste in her mouth.  She looked like an old woman without teeth cleaning her gums with her tongue, how she was moving her jaw.  I laughed out loud the two times she did it. 

I was really impressed how well both of them did.

Another odd but funny Chloe-ism tonight was after bath. Chloe was touching her head and saying something, I couldn't understand what.  We went back into the bathroom and she points at the hair dryer. She wanted her hair blown dry! Hilarious! So I complied. But I need to mention before the bath she had put her own shorts on after I changed her. She comes into the dinning room and I first notice the shorts on backwards. Then she turns around and I burst out laughing because she failed to pull the shorts up over her diaper. I told Joel that she definitely fits in the 'hood with how she's wearing those shorts. (We kind of live in the hood, but it's getting better, I think.) I should've gotten a picture but I didn't.

I'm trying to make this a quick entry, so one last thing is I got a new necklace in the mail on Friday. I ordered it from jc jewelry, an online personalized jewelry designer. I'm attaching a photo of it. I love it!

We Be Jammin

What's been going on this past week you ask? Jam. That's what's going on. Blueberry lime jam made with the Michigan blueberries we picked last weekend.  As well as some peach jam because I bought a lot of peaches and needed to use them up. I did two batches of the blueberry lime as I'm not sure if the first batch set ok. But I just read it can take up to two weeks to set. Oh well. I was going to send a jar to my brother. Maybe give one to my brother in law as it's his birthday today. Happy Birthday Paul! The card will be in the mail as soon as I can remember where I put it- I just remembered. Now I will have to remember to put it in the mail.

I took the girls tobthe zoo today while Joel did a pub crawl. We had a good time.  I made sure to take pictures so I can scrapbook the day. I already have the zoo stickers.

Staples in the Head

The last picture was of Kylie's haircut. The flash was bright, that's why her eyes are half closed.  Here is a picture of the staples. Joel has to put on the triple antibiotic because I just can't.

Scared

Tonight when I got home with the girls there was an accident. Joel had the day off so he was making dinner.  I had gotten out of work at 5:30 because I was trying to finish some stuff up. We got home and it's hot and I've a headache from this cold or sinus infection whatever it may be. Kylie is sleeping in the car but I'm not in the mood to carry her upstairs. I had Chloe inside and I get Kylie inside and go back to the van to get sippy cups and other items I don't want to leave in the van overnight. I come inside and say "I'm going upstairs." Both girls are just sitting on the steps waiting for me.  I had told them to get upstairs and they didn't budge. My hands are full and I'm trying to maneuver around them. Well, my shoulder hits a picture on the wall which falls and hits Kylie on the head. The corner hits her head and this picture is about 10 lbs. It's not light.

Kylie has this gash on her head and it's bleeding pretty bad. We get her upstairs and in the bathroom and Joel takes charge with getting the bleeding stopped or slowed, it didn't stop. Kylie is crying and Chloe is crying because Kylie is crying. What a mess! After 15 minutes Joel says we should go to the hospital. We all get in the van and go to the ER at DeVos. So thankful for their valet parking.
The nurse practitioner looks at the wound and says she'll need 3 staples in her head.  I have to hold a cotton ball to her head with the numbing medicine on it for 20 minutes and then they'll staple. At the 19 minute mark I was starting to freak out. I thought I saw a hole in her head.
The hospital does a wonderful job with kids. Kylie got to pet an Australian labradoodle named Deacon. Then when the staples were being done a woman had brought some books for Kylie to read to distract her. Of course it still hurt and when it was over the nurse practitioner said she wanted to put one more staple in. Oh boy! Kylie didn't like that but it got done. She did get a green slushy and a sticker book to color because she did a great job.   Then, because it was 8:00 and we didn't eat dinner yet we got McDonalds for the girls and Joel and I had what Joel had started making before the head injury occured.

I am scared like the subject line says because I think about tonight and I cry. I know stuff like this happens all the time but I don't want it to happen to my children. We already lost one of our girls.  I don't want to lose another.  I can't help but think that. I know it's not likely to happen, but it could. Kylie could get an infection and fever and... She already had this bad cough. I have this feeling we won't be going to see my brother in New York soon because something will happen.

I just had to get that out of my head. I feel a bit better. I've been thinking I may have to make an appointment with my counselor so she can reinforce everything is ok, kids have accidents and no one would make it to adulthood if all accidents ended badly. Wow! I did not think I'd react this way. But with the trauma from 2 years ago, it shouldn't surprise me. 

I know I need to turn to Jesus and give this all to Him and not worry. That is hard to do. I will try and pray.
I will try and post pictures. I just realized tonight I should see if blogger has an app and they do. I'm writing this on my phone. It's been 1 year and 1 month since we had internet. 

Kylie got her hair cut 2 days ago and it's adorable. Then I took some off the back of her head. Yucky! I couldn't wash her hair tonight and she kind of smells like blood. Ugh, not liking the smell. Her hair looks pink where there is blood. 

Good night, I pray it is a good night.

Gaining Control

I read something in my devotional that hit home and I wanted to share it.  This is from Jesus Calling by Sarah Young, it's written as Jesus speaking:

"Do not search for security in the world you inhabit.  You tend to make mental checklists of things you need to do in order to gain control of your life.  If only you could check everything off your list, you could relax and be at peace. But the more you work to accomplish that goal, the more things crop up on your list.  The harder you try, the more frustrated you become.  There is a better way to find security in this life.  Instead of scrutinizing your checklist, focus your attention on My Presence with you.  This continual contact with Me will keep you in My Peace. Moreover, I will help you sort out what is important and what is not, what needs to be done now and what does not.  Fix you eyes not on what is seen (your circumstances), but on what is unseen (My Presence)."

From: Isaiah 26:3 and Corinthians 4:18

I'll try.  This is so, so hard to do. To gain control, let go. That seems so foreign to do.

Happy Mother's Day!

First of all, I'm sitting at Biggby coffee with Kylie.  She is watching My Little Pony on YouTube, the newer version that you can find on cable.  It keeps her busy and she loves the whipped cream with sprinkles she can get here.  I'm on another computer and I thought I'd use Google Chrome for once, so I get it set up to my page including my gmail.  I thought it would be pretty easy to also add my blog as a widget.  Think again.  I couldn't find it quickly when I  looked at the widgets so I said "forget it" and just went and searched for it in the search bar.  It took me 10 minutes to find my own blog! I'm guessing because I don't write much and people have stopped checking in because I don't write much.  I'm hoping soon we'll have the Internet working at the house again.  Hey, it's been about a year, it's time.

I actually did write a list of topics I can write about so that way I'm not sitting here going "uhhh, I don't have anything to say," or "I forgot what I was going to say."  Now I just don't know if I should space this out over a couple of blogs or write one big huge one.  I'll probably space it out because I'll run out of time.  Good thing there's like a hundred My Little Pony episodes : ) Kylie find something else to watch if she goes through all the MLP.

On May 1, I took Kylie to Kindergarten Roundup at St. Thomas.  We are excited to send her to this school, it's our Parish's school and they do such a wonderful job with the children.  At some point, I want to talk with the teachers and principle about Chloe and Faith and that Kylie will mention Faith sometimes.  She does at home so I'm thinking she might outside of home too. I want her to hear from other people that Faith is with Jesus in the most beautiful place you can't even imagine.

The Roundup we went to was in the afternoon which worked better for me.  I took a half day off, picked up Kylie and told her that if she would let me leave her in the Kindergarten room with all her new friends, we would go to Spoonlickers for ice cream (it's really frozen yogurt).  When we arrived at school, Kylie had a death grip on my arm and didn't want me to leave.  I stayed with her for 30 minutes.  We had gone to see the Enrichment teachers office. Kindergarten is only half day, 5 days a week.  Three days a week Kylie will be with the Enrichment teacher until school ends.  On those days she'll eat in the cafeteria with the older kids.  Fun! Fun!  After going back to the classroom, I reminded Kylie of our deal with ice cream.  She pushed me out the door.  I guess I shouldn't worry so much about her making friends.  I think I was awful at making friends when I was little and I don't want her to experience what I did.  A little insight to my childhood - 3rd grade my "best friend" told me on days when we had to play inside she would play with me, otherwise when we were outside, she didn't want anything to do with me.  That might not be how it really was, but that's what I remember.

The principle was serving coffee and cookies in the lounge so I went to visit her and some of the parents.  It was nice, except these parents will have their children in the afternoon class whereas Kylie is in the morning class. It was a good time, except the tooth pain I was experiencing.  Before long, Roundup was done and I picked her up.  I told her we would go to Spoonlickers and then to the long park (called so because it's a longer walk from our house, unlike the short park which is only 2.5 blocks away).

I love ice cream so I treated myself as well.  Spoonlickers is kind of expensive but it's understandable as they use organic all or most of the time.  Big mistake for me having ice cream. I was in excruciating pain.  I had called the dentist earlier in the day but they couldn't fit me in until the following Wednesday. I was going to Traverse City that weekend and I didn't want to have this pain, so I called the dentist back and they told me to come in right away if it hurt.  I took Kylie and she sat my lap watching SpongeBob while I had a root canal.  I was glad to have it done because my tooth didn't hurt anymore.

That's all I'll post in this post. I will do another one shortly (hopefully, I was having connectivity issues a minute ago).