Done, Sort Of

Well our upstairs is sort of done.  For the most part we have our living room back, not everything is back in it but we are working on that.  Our Dish doesn't seem to be working, I have no idea why. We have 2 receivers and the one we have in our basement works fine. It's seems because we didn't use the one for almost two months, Dish shut it off or something.  I need to take a look at the bill and give them a call. I hope the floor doesn't drive me nuts. I have the urge to swiffer it every time I go up there because of dust and cat hair and everything else. I'm sure I will get use to it as the time factor (don't have time) is influential. I still have to convince Joel we need to put the computer at an actual desk so if Kylie is using it, she sits properly. Before the remodel, the computer screen was on an arm attached to the wall and we sat on the couch either craning our neck or twisting our bodies to see the screen.

Chloe is so cute, I want to give her kisses all the time.  She is getting so smart too.  She will bring you things or look for something if you ask her to. I don't feel she is delayed in anything.  I think we always have these developmental session two weeks before we should because then they would see her walking and talking.  She doesn't do full sentences of course but it's coming.

I can't leave out Kylie, she is too cute too. Such a girl.  She will only wear leggings (no pants) when it's cold. Right now she mainly wears dresses with an occasional skirt and shirt thrown in.  But the dresses either have to be long or frilly so she can twirl or have sparkles on it. What have we (I) done!!  Just kidding, it's adorable now.  Hopefully she doesn't reach a stage where all she wants to do is wear black : )

Joel and I have had some conversations with Kylie about Faith.  She understands that Faith lives with Jesus now in Heaven with Aunt Jan-Al and Uncle Jason's dog and cat. She told Joel she wanted to go to Heaven to see Faith.  Last night she asked us who else is in Heaven and I said Mommy and Daddy grandparents.  "Only old people go to Heaven."  We told her no, all ages go.  We will have more of these conversations and I pray that we give good answers that she will understand. We did receive a grieving book for kids when Faith passed that was geared toward kids around age 6, looks like it's time to get that out and look at it. 

Astigmatism

Chloe's eye appointment on Friday went well. It was only an 1.5 hours, I thought it would be 2 hours.  The eye doc said she has a slight astigmatism (Astigmatism (uh-STIG-muh-tiz-um) is a common, mild and generally easily treatable imperfection in the curvature of your eye. The condition can cause blurred vision.) She doesn't need glasses yet, and we go back in a year to check it again because it could change. Now if we notice her doing strange things like bumping into walls then we would go before next July.   

That's all I have time to report now.  Our living room should be back to normal by next week (getting area rug and cleaning right now). I'll have to post a picture. Hopefully Internet will work.

Why do I live in Chaos?

Every day I feel like I don't have any control over what's happening.  It's as minor as when I get to brush my teeth or as major as "Uh oh, this bill is due TODAY!" That happened yesterday, but luckily it was for a store so I stopped on my way home and paid it. Kylie just had to ride the escalator, so we did it once. I had Chloe in the stroller so I just left her and went on the escalator with Kylie because Kylie thought she could do it by herself. When we got to the top, she had no clue where to go to get to the bottom again.  And no, I didn't leave Chloe, I left the stroller and carried Chloe.

I know God is in control, but I play a part in my life. Sometimes I feel like I'm just waiting for life to begin, or get better. Then I think "life is going on now, pay attention!"  Sometimes I feel like things will be better once this is done or that is over.  Will it really be better, or is that a pipe dream?  Right now I would love to contract the whole house out so Joel was free to spend time with the girls and I. I don't offer up doing things because that would take away from him working on things. It's a crappy place to be. I don't know how to find any balance - with anything - Chaos.  You'd know it if you saw my purse, what a jumble of stuff I have in it.


Tomorrow Chloe has an eye appointment. I pray that will go well and it won't take 4 hours. They will have to dilate her eyes. Now that she's more mobile, I'm not sure how this will go.

Day 25

It's day 25 of the remodel of the upstairs (I'm excluding the downstairs right now because that's going on day 2,557). I'm doing okay with it, there have only been a couple of times when I got frustrated.  What's more frustrating is the heat we have.  There is no air conditioning in the house, we do have window units for our bedroom and for Kylie's bedroom so it's comfortable at night. And of course since the girls don't have anywhere to play but the bedrooms, it's perfect.  These bedrooms are not big so it can get crowded quick with lots of toys around. I'm glad we have the plastic pool for the backyard too.  It's funny watching Chloe. I start putting water in the pool and she just climbs right in and sits down. "I'm ready mom!"  She loves water.

Hopefully we get some rain, now!  I'm afraid some fireworks are going to set the house on fire.  It happened to the church we used to attend.  That's the theory anyway, fireworks. Nothing official yet as it happened at about 1AM Sunday. They salvaged a crucifix and some chalices from inside and that was all.  I remember they had a campaign to raise money to improve the sound system, air/heat, add stain glass windows, new bathrooms, and some other things. They had done most of that, the latest was adding some beautiful stained glass windows.  They will rebuild but wow.

That's all the time I have. I will be traveling with the girls to Iowa today. I pray the trip goes well. We'll be back on Sunday.