God Said "No"

We still don't have Internet hooked up, but the room looks great.  Every night I go and pick up the mess that the girls created.  It wasn't too bad last night.  Maybe because Chloe was busy throwing her shoes down the stairs instead of messing up the room : )

I wanted to share something I received in an email years and years ago. I think I got it from my brother-in-law, Paul.  It spoke to me then and it still speaks to me every time I read.

GOD SAID “NO”

            I asked God to take away my habit.

            God said, No.

It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.

God said, No.

His spirit is whole; his body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.

God Said, No.

Patience is a byproduct of tribulations; it isn’t granted, it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness.

God said, No.

I give you blessings.  Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.

God said, No.

Suffering draws you apart for worldly cares and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.

God said, No.

You must grow on your own!, but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.

God said, No.

I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.

God said…Ahhhh, finally you have the idea.

Isn't it really good?  I think so.


I've been very bad about keeping up the blog, one main reason is the no Internet thing. But it just seems like I'm go go go now. Someone retired at work so my work load has increased, but so far so good.
I'm suppose to write 'our story' to send to Ella Bullis foundation so they can put it on the website.  I got that email the beginning of July and I said "I'll get it to you in a week." Well 3 weeks have past. Thankfully they are great people so it's okay, but I feel bad, like missing a deadline or bill payment - icky feelings.

Honestly, I don't know if I can write our story down. I know it in my head, but to think back to write something down is terrifying me. It's sad and it will make me cry.  I will do it because I said I would but how to get started.... Since we were featured on their site before there is a little story on us that I can start with.


Joel and I are both tired lately because Chloe seems to have issues during the night lately, where she's up crying. Sometimes it's just a couple of seconds, and I can get her back sleeping.  Other times something is wrong like last night, I think her tummy hurt and she pooped finally at 12:30AM and did settle down after that.  I like to sleep all night long, we need to try to head to bed earlier, that might help. It's funny because she is still a baby, like she was last year, except she doesn't have to eat during the night, so the encounters usually are quicker.  I've got to remind myself to enjoy it now, she won't be this little for long. All I have to do is look at Kylie and what a big girl she is getting to be.  Often now Kylie and I color together - it's the best.  Her favorite color is all the colors : )